It’s a New Year… It’s a new Dr.’s appointment.
I usually try to leave my blog as food-related as possible and keep away from personal posts, but this just seemed like an appropriate time to share another tid-bit of my journey.
The New Year is here, and it seems as though everyone is cracking down on their new diets, new fitness plans, and new whatever-resolutions. In fact, I’ve been guilty of mocking all the excessive equipment sales, and the product placement of new energy drinks and get-fit-quick solutions that all the stores and media seem to be saturating us with. Poking fun at the idea that just because it’s a “New Year” means that anything is going to change. I’m a firm believer that once a (fill in the blank with your current weakness- mine’s a chocolate pudding addiction), always a (example: chocolate pudding addict). I feel that people get on the bandwagon, try out the latest craze in dieting, and after a few days (and if they’re really head strong- weeks) they’ll give up and go back to their old habits.
Old habits die hard.
I feel a person has to be truly committed to something, as well as have a very convincing reason, for doing something in order to reach their goal. Take my marathon for example. Hardest 26.2 miles of my life! But I had a determination and a reason. My best friend and running pal had recently passed away from cancer. I ran each and every stretch of that race for her. That was the only thing that kept me going after the rain, hail, snow and sleet that occurred on that day. I wasn’t about to let a bit of bad weather slow me down! Nope. She deserved better than that!
That is the sort of determination I believe needs to be behind every goal if it is going to be achieved. So “What does this have to do with the title of my post?” you might be wondering. Exactly this- This journey has been difficult. Harder than I could have ever imagined. There were times when I literally was so sick and tired of eating the way that I eat that I honestly just wanted to throw in the towel. I wanted to just forget about it and let them stick tubes in me and shove pills down my throat. I’ll be honest, this way of living is HARD! It’s not all cherries and cupcakes. (Unless of course you’re about to eat my gf, vegan, cupcakes that is!) When you’re living like I do, you don’t see results “instantly” like you would from any of those get-fit-quick gimmicks I spoke of earlier. It comes slow. So slow, you don’t even notice it until you slip up and eat something you shouldn’t.
These past 5 years have been a journey. One that I wasn’t even sure I was winning until today. Today was my 6 month checkup with my diabetics specialist and to be honest, I was a bit nervous. I mean after all, the last visit ended in him telling me to go gluten-free, low-glycemic and everything else I was already doing! I had no idea if I would get something entirely new thrown on me!
I sat in the highly uncomfortable squishy doctor’s waiting room chair nervously and heard the patient next to me complain about how much trouble he was in for gaining 13 pounds over the holiday break. Rapid weight gain is a sign of insufficient insulin in the cells for people with insulin-resistance. It ultimately means you are not eating, or exercising right and if those two things don’t help/fix it, then usually patients have to result in hard medications so their pancreas doesn’t wear down and they develop type 2 diabetes.
“Sheesh!” I thought to myself, “I totally forgot to factor in the holidays! I’m sure I gained a decent amount of weight too!”
I nervously thought back to all the treats I’d made (though on my diet) and the few tidbits here or there where I slipped up.
“This sets me back at least another 6 months!” The patient to my right exclaimed.
“Jessica?” the nurse called me back.
After a few routine tests, and the usual nurse small talk, I was left to my own devices. I frantically pulled out my smartphone and starting searching for the best work-out routines, and recipe plans for the upcoming week. Texting anyone who was currently online for any form of distraction I could think of. I swear I was sweating like a pig by the time Doc burst in with a giant smile and a firm handshake. I could feel my own timidness trembling inside his own sturdy hands.
“Well Jessica,” he said looking down at the test results from the nurse, “you’ve lost 10 pounds over the holiday break!”
We both looked at each other with shock and awe.
“That’s really impressive!”
I was floored. I usually don’t make it a point to constantly check and log my weight, so this really was news to me. He proceeded to review my other test results and to make a long story short, all systems were go! This is the first time I’ve had significant success in my entire 5 year process. He seemed thoroughly impressed and told me to just “Keep up whatever it is that you’re doing, cause it’s working!”
I felt like I was floating on air as I walked out of the building and into my car. All I could think is, “I’m making progress. I’m getting better. This is great news!” I could have burst into tears. The knowledge that I was getting better without the use of hard medications was almost overwhelming.
The gift of good health is good news. This year, give yourself the gift of a healthy body. Give it as a gift to yourself for Christmas 2014. Yes I know that’s a whole year away, but results take TIME. Good health takes PATIENCE. Don’t you dare look at yourself in the mirror and say “I’m not worth it.” “I’m not thin enough.” “I’m too lumpy/plumpy/round or fat.” I hate that word. “Fat.” Let’s make that a swear word. You are not “fat!” (Pardon my language), you are beautiful! You know why? Because you are a battling your own challenges, fighting your own fights, and even living your own life. You are you. That makes you beautiful.
No I haven’t LOST 10 pounds, I’ve GAINED knowledge about my health that took 5 years to acquire.
Next time you go to that party and that dessert table looks like it might just crawl it’s way right into your mouth, you just think to yourself, “Nope. Not today. Today I’m going to be 1 cupcake healthier.” “Today I’m going to be 1 mile walk healthier.” “Tomorrow I’m going to be 1 more hour of sleep healthier.”
Give yourself the gift of a healthy life. It’s worth it. Even if it takes years to get there.